50 life lessons.

2020. This year marks my 50th year. I woke up without a hangover this morning and thought "well, I've learned some things". Then I wrote down a bunch more things I have learned. I'm not writing this to tell you how to live your life. These are lessons I have picked up by making a…

Riot Fest and phase three

Christmas 2001, our youngest had just turned one.  For the last two years I had been trying to communicate to my husband how unhappy I was in our marriage. Not hearing my words, or taking heed of them,  I had asked for a separation. Christmas was a dark season that year. On Christmas morning I…

Liz Phair.

I was late to the Liz Phair game. Exile in Guyville came out in 1993 and somehow didn’t hit my radar for about a decade. In 2002, when I became a newly divorced single mom, it flitted across my radar and I fell in love. I felt like everything she wrote was a part of…

i. and love. and you.

hands dart like fish. swim. play. settle into place. fingers entwine. seek. graze. push. pull. wiggle toes. search for more. looks furtive. piercing. relaxed. playful. understanding. pleading. slide away. bodies heat and cool. find each other.  pull apart. the space is cold. hearts beat. separate. together. separate. i. and love. and you. three words. unspoken.…

Mommas.

I've been watching my social media the last couple of weeks as we wrapped up this school year. I'm watching more than one friend celebrate a graduation from High School, and for some of us, it's the last time we wrap up a school year. This is it. All the babies will have flown the…

And the baby turns 18.

9.22.18 It really hadn’t sunk in until about 4 minutes ago. The baby is turning 18 tomorrow. 18. The baby. It’s not like I haven’t been thinking about this year for… well awhile. My primary life role has been mother. I’ve been a mother since I was a fresh faced 23 year old. From that…

Hands.

I was riding in an Uber in New Mexico and was struck by my drivers hands. She was about my age, straddling that line between her 40s and 50's. That age where your clothes or hair might not give away your age, but your face and hands sure do. She was listening to the local…

Whole 30.

So yes, this is going to be a post about my journey through whole 30. I recognize there are approximately 7 billion such blog posts, but this was a pretty radical 30 days for me, and I'm going to share it. First of all, I jumped into this without reading much about it. My best…

Growing up.

My son was recently going through his "old" room, (having upgraded twice as each older sibling moved out) and found a whole bunch of his "treasures". Included in this category: a bag of broken crap collected from the street while walking home from elementary school, a chunk of concrete, stuffed animals, bouncy balls (around 100…