Cigarettes.

09.2015 Cigarettes. The newest taboo. Today I was conducting some business at the bank, and my heavily bearded, perfectly coiffed teller had his Vape sitting just out of eyesight. Because I'm sort, I could see it perfectly from my vantage point, tho I think the intent was it to be out of sight. I had already…

Letting go.

When Taylor was born and her first Christmas came around I went out and got her a Baby's First Christmas ornament from Hallmark. In fact, I think I got two. And most years afterwards, minus a few years here and there, after the holiday I would take the kids out and let them pick out…

mother.

One of the hardest things about losing my mother, was the expectation people had of my experience, based on their own ideals or their own experiences with my mother. My mother, like most people, was a complex person. I'm empathetic to her life, and what made her, her. Its the same empathy I hope my children…

maybe. don’t have a great night.

so. there has been a whole lot of talk this week, in light of the Elliot Rodger shooting. in fact, there has been a lot of conversation floating around lately about a lot of things. feminism. rape culture. self entitled (white) males. gun violence. the violent culture of america. gun rights. mental illness . .…

Casey.

I debated posting anything, or even writing anything today. Our grief still feels like something I need to protect and keep private. Several events happened after Casey's death that made me feel like I needed to say something. Because keeping quiet only amplifies the stigma. So... The first event relates to one of my children. I'm…

Parenting.

When I started .ing back on another format a few years ago the premise was i would write about all things i was doing. gardening. living. working. loving. writing. All things Heather is doing. heatheringheather. or for short .ing. some things have changed over time, as my life has changed and i have found myself writing…

Holy Shit Moments

Digging up some old blogs from my blogspot account. From Dec. 13, 2012 holy shit moments one of the things i learned a long time ago are is there are holy shit moments. i used to think that once in a while, you would get one. one that smacked you upside the head. but what…

loves not lost.

so today marks the official 2 year anniversary of the break up. and i think from this point forward I'm going to try to quit referencing it as a milestone. i tend to look at my life in segments. my marriage. my life post steve/pre chris.  my relationship with chris. my life post chris. its…