I have few childhood memories. Peonies are one of them. We had a whole line of them down our backyard along the fence. The backyard was immense when I was a child. It took forever to get from one side to the other. I loved to walk along that long row of Peonies and smell … Continue reading Peonies.
This is my sisters room. The carpet is blue. I picked the room closest to the stairs, with access to the attic. But I'm jealous of her two closets and copious sunshine. I don't want to want my room and her room too. But I do. I scale the back of the house. I find … Continue reading The carpet is blue.
My main goal in mothering, was to try to not be my mother. I'm constantly measuring my aptitude as a mother against the yardstick of disfunction. My goal of all time spent with my kids is to have them leave feeling loved and liked and valued. Sometimes I think I spend so much time making … Continue reading Mothering.
i dont know why i feel the need to write a preface here. this is my space and i've used it pretty liberally over the years to pour my guts out. but sometimes doing so feels . . . narcissistic. well, maybe it is. but you know what? here is the thing. because social media … Continue reading just. being.
Tomorrow is the three year anniversary of Casey being gone. I spent two hours in the car tonight driving home from Indy, letting the memories wash over me. Not trying to block them but remembering and crying, smiling, and crying some more. The first year felt like denial. Since I didn't see him but every … Continue reading Ghosts.
I modified the recipe from the link below. I have put an * by my modifications. Recipe by Lizza Fuhr at PopSugar http://www.popsugar.com/fitness/Healthy-Sweet-Potato-Salad-Recipe-31874999 INGREDIENTS 4 large sweet potatoes - 4 cups 1/2 cup extra-virgin olive oil, divided Salt and freshly ground black pepper 1/4 cup red-wine vinegar** I used mango rice vinegar because i was … Continue reading Sweet Potato Salad
Low fat Chili 1 lb. grass fed happy cow meat, ground 28 oz. tomato sauce 28 oz. diced tomatoes 16 oz. red kidney beans 16 oz. white kidney beans 16 oz. can corn 1 red and one yellow pepper 1 med onion cayanne pepper, red pepper flakes dice peppers. dice onion. throw in skillet with … Continue reading Low cal, clean recipes.
Cigarettes. The newest taboo. The filthy, filthy cigarette. Today I was conducting some business at the bank, and my heavily bearded, perfectly coiffed teller had his Vape sitting just out of eyesight. (he simply could not have been more cliche`) Because I'm on the lower side of tall, I could see it perfectly from my vantage … Continue reading Cigarettes.
When Taylor was born and her first Christmas came around I went out and got her a Baby's First Christmas ornament from Hallmark. In fact, I think I got two. And most years afterwards, minus a few years here and there, after the holiday I would take the kids out and let them pick out … Continue reading Letting go.
One of the hardest things about losing my mother, was the expectation people had of my experience, based on their own ideals or their own experiences with my mother. My mother, like most people, was a complex person. I'm empathetic to her life, and what made her, her. Its the same empathy I hope my children … Continue reading mother.