The last month or so, I've had a bunch of stuff swimming around in my head, my heart. Thoughts of impermanence, loss, life, meaning, past, present, future. Relationships, job. Children. Friends. People you know, people who dig deep, and people who leave. Life is a trip. Literally. I started my day today at an Estate…
It all starts and ends with a song.
This blog started with a song 4 years ago. And I'm going to post a song, that's really all the headline has to do with this blog post. Well, except it's true. From birth to death. Every moment is tied to a song. Every relationship. Lifes moments. Begin and end. Beginning to end. I was…
Living.
There are things in life we have very little control over. When an illness strikes, depression takes over, mother nature rains down her wrath, a moronic cheeto gets voted into office, some things you just don't have much of a say in. At points over the last few years I was looking around at my life, and…
How to be obnoxious, when you aren’t even trying.
I was talking with a friend today, about my early blog postings. Stuff that's floating around on a blog somewhere that I've lost track of. My posts from a few years ago I cringe at. I was so sure after Chris and I split that I had everything figured out. I learned what I need…
2016. Thank you.
I wanted to wait until 2016 was officially behind me before I said anything, no need to tempt fate. 2016. You were a good year. If you've been following along at all, my years start out like this "last year was hard, but I've learned a lot, I feel better prepared for what life throws…
Happy Holidays.
In the last two weeks I had road trips with the same co-worker and he loves Christmas. He loves holiday music. Which lead me to ask "what do you love about christmas". And I swear to you his eyes sparkled and he lit up and told me. And he asked why I didn't love Christmas.…
Snow. Mortality. And the art of staying open.
There are times my life feels a little . . normal. And there are times it feels like the universe cracks itself open just for me and goes, LOOK LOOK LOOK. Don't you dare forget how magical this is. I don't believe in coincidences, everything is connected by invisible threads. You can chose to see…
I didn’t think it would be this hard.
Back in the dark ages when I had little kids, there wasn't the internet to go to for parenting advice. You pretty much drew on your own upbringing and either emulated it, or fought against it. I did a bit of both. By the time Steve and I parted ways in 2002, things were picking…
letting go.
I've written about this before, when Taylor went off to college. This isn't a new subject, to anyone, myself included. I still remember vividly, watching Taylor walk into her first dorm. The truck unloaded, the pictures taken, the hugs goodbye. Her casual walk off into her new life. My tears on the drive home. But…
Human. Be(ing).
Last night I couldn't sleep. I was exhausted. I had one of those days where I felt ineffectual and frustrated and all too hyper aware of every single thing in the universe. I went home and went to yoga and tried to calm my mind but it wouldn't stop. During shavasana I couldn't quit running…
ing. 